I am a suicide survivor
I wanted to carry your burdens. But not like this.
You pushed me away
Every time.
I wanted to be there for you.
The heroic big sister.
Your fatal choice dumped all your pain on someone else.
It is not a way out.
It just pushed the suffering onto me.
Anger. Rage. Confusion. Shock. Fear. Chaos. Guilt. Failure.
One thing I refuse to feel- Shame.
I’m not ashamed of you.
Instead the devil whispers FAILURE.
‘You couldn’t save her.’
‘You were not enough.’
‘You were NOT WORTH it for her to change her choice.’
‘Ha. What makes you think you can even help others now.’
‘You are nothing.’
I wanted to carry your burdens. But not like this.
Instead I give myself to the ONE who carries me.
To the one who commands his angels to carry you
Your feet won’t even scrape against the rocks.
Your feet won’t even scrape against the rocks.
His faithful promises are my armor and protection.
I will find rest in the SHADOW of the Almighty
My place of safety.
He will cover me with his feathers and shelter me with his wings.
They will hold you up with their hands
He will be with me in trouble
No evil will conquer me.
HE wants to carry my burdens. Just like that.
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Based on these Scriptures:
Deuteronomy 32:11
"Like an eagle that stirs up its nest, That hovers over its young, He spread His wings and caught them, He carried them on His pinions.
Deuteronomy 1:31
and in the wilderness where you saw how the LORD your God carried you, just as a man carries his son, in all the way which you have walked until you came to this place.'
Psalm 91
He will cover you with His pinions, And under His wings you may seek refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and bulwark.
Psalm 61:4
Let me dwell in Your tent forever; Let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings.
